Just like many other people, we had always celebrated the 31st of December at home with the family. For us it had become a tradition of some kind...an obligation....
One of the reasons why we had this obligation was because it is my fathers birthday on New Years day. Often I doubted the use of this family-day since we have been doing it for the last 28 years. I wanted to go out.....I wanted to see what it is like on the other side of the world when the New year starts.
Finally...now I know that there's nothing I want more than to have my family all together at home to witness the beginning of a new year; to watch the beautiful fireworks, to eat my father's birthday cake at midnight and to toast on one and all health.
This year would be the first time that we won't be together as my father fights hard in the ICU to survive; as my grandmother now stays in an Nursery for elder people.
As my father's situation is getting worse every time I see him. I can see he is having a tough time. Just lying there. Not being able to speak and move must be terrible. It breaks my heart again and again when I see him like that. I feel so useless, so helpless.... Then sometimes I think I haven't been such a good son. Maybe I should have listened a bit more....spend a little more time with him and told him that how much I care about him..... Now I might never have the chance anymore.....
Occasions like New Year and Christmas aren't just about the birth of some saint and leaving bad things behind. It's also about being together.
No matter how beautiful the Christmas trees are; No matter how bright the New Year fireworks are, it wont mean anything if you cannot share these moments with you the ones you love most.
Dad...be strong...we will always be at your side and waiting for you to come home....Dad .... YOU CAN DO IT!!!
